Friday Reflections: Nothing works anymore

If you’ve been reading this blog over the last couple of months, you know that Fridays are the worst for homeless veterans. All progress stops.

Employers aren’t hiring.
Housing offices aren’t working.
Support services aren’t servicing.

At the end of the week we often take inventory of how we’re doing.

I’m not doing well at all.

The truth is that I’m hurting. I get frustrated with prayer and often quit before I’m done. I reflect on old times or watch old videos on Youtube and I get even more depressed over how good things used to be. I’m surrounded by people, yet none of them can help because they’re either going through the same thing, or actually feed off of the pain.

And there doesn’t appear to be any relief in sight.

There was once a time when I loved weekends. The promise of the freedom from the school I didn’t appreciate. Pizza and video game sleepovers at the houses of friends. Sleeping in and NFL football Sundays, a luxury that I still wish I could have today.

All of it just seems so far away.

I’m fighting but nothing is working. I’m trying to find work but it feels like applications are falling into the bottomless pit of internet work sites. Words of comfort by those working to solve homelessness lost their effectiveness weeks ago.

It feels like I’m floating in space, helpless, because if I swim somewhere the destination still doesn’t matter.

Goodness, I just really need a win. I don’t want this weekend to come.

Friends. Times are hard. You can help out below. If you have any questions, you can write me directly at Torres.fjr@gmail.com





Next: Read my Thursday Reflections HERE

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